Monday, October 24, 2016

Making an (In)Decision

Today's musing post isn't pulled from any list, but inspired by looked at a few of them.

There are times where I feel like I have a hard time making decisions; it crops up mostly when I'm trying to buy something for myself. There are certain things that I can reel off and grab because I know I'll need them; others I'll hem and haw and walk away from the opportunity.



A really good example of this is picking out how to decorate my own apartment. I've been working from a mostly bare set of walls for the year and a half that I've been living in my current apartment. And some of it is because I'm not sure what I should put up on my walls. It's something I've only just started to push through, and start collecting, picking up several prints from local artists to hang on my walls.

But it still hits me on this front: I went to Rochester's local Comic-con, and wandered around for hours trying to decide if I actually wanted to buy any of the really nice prints that people had for sale. And this past weekend, I was in a Poster job, flipping though a giant selection and still hitting the same wall.

On some level, it's this strange fear of making the wrong decision, or missing out on making a right decision later. I feel like when it comes down to it, I have a hard time judging my own decision making. And maybe it's that I like bouncing ideas off people, hearing my own thoughts out loud and in contrast to other people.

I can't really decide.